So apparently today I’m posting about relationships.
When I was younger, I told myself I\’d have one boyfriend. We would date for like 5-10 years and then get married.
5-10 years, because I\’d meet him in secondary school (obviously I\’d have to finish university and all that) then we’d have one of those high school happily ever after love stories!
Boy was I in for a shock!
Lol, but I’m getting ahead of myself. So, because of this idea, I was very careful about the guys in my life.
Whenever I met a guy and I thought he was cute, I\’d start going through my mental checklist. Christian. Check. Genotype. Check. Tribe. Check. Complexion. Check, Age. Check. Surname. Check (as per his surname had to rhyme with my first uno!)
Any guy that fitted my list would then be considered. Ah, I couldn’t make any mistakes in the process, and I felt a list would be fail-proof!
Now, let\’s just ignore the fact that I was young and naive and didn’t even know what I deserved from a man.
Let\’s also ignore the fact that whenever I thought a guy was potential bae, I would move things around on the list and take it to God like “You know he’s good for me yea?”. As if I was trying to convince God that my choice, even though I knew it was flawed would suddenly become great if I could just sell the idea to God! Lol. Anyways, long story short, my high school fairy tale did not happen.
(I’m sure you can guess some of the reason why).
At some point in my life, I would have been upset by all the “almost” or “didn’t work out” relationships I’ve had in my life (calm down, they aren’t that many), but honestly, I’m not anymore.
I wasn’t ready then to be in a relationship, and I didn’t know it. I felt like I could make it work with whomever, as long as I loved the person. I ignored things like, what if the person didn’t have the same end goal as me? Or the same principles? Or the same beliefs?
I also ignored the fact that I was a highly emotional woman who ran away from conflicts, couldn’t say no to anyone, was a horrible people pleaser and did not think highly of herself at all! This meant that I attracted all sorts of people and I always felt like I deserved what I got. I also felt like I could be the “messiah” lol! As per, if the guy is a drunkard or a druggie or a cheat, I can save him from all that.
Some good loving and prayers should do the trick! Lol
I’m sure you all get the gist! But here’s the thing I want to point out.
Being in a committed relationship is more than a pretty face and a sexy body. It’s more than checklists and criteria’s. It shouldn’t be entered with idealism.
There is nothing wrong in being single, and there is nothing wrong in not being ready for a relationship. If you’re not ready, it\’s really not a big deal, lol just sit down and relax. Work on yourself so when the right man or woman comes along, you can be the person he/she deserves. Don’t mess around with someone because you want to fit in.
Relationships are not overrated, but at the same time, you don’t need a relationship to be complete.
Now, all this plenty talk I’m doing stems from the fact that we tend to think maturity is directly related to age, but it really isn’t! You can be as old as you want and still not be ready or mature enough for a relationship. Your readiness is not determined by your age! Some people are ready at 18 others at 25 others at 35.
Don’t shout for love and relationship until you’re ready for it. It really isn’t worth the heartache and pain. Work on yourself, enjoy your singleness, enjoy getting to know yourself! It helps the process!
And as to how you know you’re ready, well that post is for another day!
(P.s Before ya\’ll start commenting, I\’ve had and still have some pretty amazing guys in my life.)
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